I have wild vines running rampant through my back garden. Some of them are morning glory vines. They have wrapped themselves around everything and almost killed a favorite early blooming azaelia. Last year, after Alex died, I didn't care about anything - gardening, glass, nothing. I allowed the vines to run rampant and this year I almost lost everything in the garden. I came close to losing everything in life too. I lost another grandson, Travis, and have contemplated letting the vines run rampant again this year. But.... I didn't get any blooming irises and almost lost my roses and I don't want to lose my life. So, with clippers in hand, I will eradicate as much of the vines as possible and try to keep diligent in saving what's left - of my garden and my life. I will try the best I know how. I'm not sure if I care if I succeed, yet, but I don't want to lose my options.
My mother is dying. She's going inch by painful inch. It is leaving scars upon the heart of my sister who has volunteered, in her own brave way, to watch and care for my mom. Another vine, another life. My mother's life has been full of hardship and I can't say she handled it well. Her leaving is hard also. May she find peace at the end of this rocky road, and a vine free garden to dwell in.
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I met you at the GL Midevil Faire, your work is amazing. I looked up your website from the business card I picked up, from there, to this blog. When I read your entries, I started to cry, for I can understand your pain. My Father also has dementia as well as lung cancer, and we don't have much time left with him. I've been having a rough time with all of this, afterall I am "Daddy's litle girl." My father has gone down hill very fast over the course of the last year. Most times, he doesn't even know who we are. It sounds strange, but in some way it is nice to know that there are others in the same pain as we are. I will pray for you and your family and hope that you will do the same for me. Please feel free to check out my blog also. I wish the best for you and the main thing I have learned is to just accept. Have a great day.
ks - I am so sorry you've had to go through the terrible experiences I've had. I tried to do a search for your blog but came up empty handed. Of course, I'm so new to this, I'm probably doing it wrong. What's the name of your blog. Hope you see this reply. Wishing you bright blessings.
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